In my opinion you are neitheir broken nor deficient. You have been through an emotional and hormonal rollercoaster. Your body still isn’t back to normal. I think you are being way too hard on yourself for having normal feelings.

Take good care of yourself and your perfectly-sized-for-you family. Big hugs.

I love the quote in this post. I had never heard it before – it is so true. it is simple, yet accurate, and explains everything, while telling us it can’t be solved.

I’ve been thinking a lot about it and know that I always need a project . The last 5-6 months, I’ve been working out as my project. I’m still doing it, but now what I wanted from it is largely attained, so I need something new.

But, more importantly I think I need to get back to my Buddhist philosophy studies so that I can work toward contentment with just being and calm the voice inside that always wants more, more, more. Which, for me, means I must also do more yoga.

Good luck, girl! If you figure it out, would you please let me know? I would sure appreciate it!
.-= suz´s last blog ..Nothing to See Here =-.

Reading this makes me sad. I don’t think you are different ~ I think many women (and their sig others) feel they couldn’t handle another one but did it anyway because – it’s what people do. I think you know yourself and admitting this out loud is quite brave, possibly making other women feel less isolated in their feelings.
As you know, I went through many years of infertility treatment and was never able to carry. Now I can honestly say that I believe I was not meant to have children. I like kids but I really don’t think I was meant to be a mother. And it doesn’t bother me one little bit anymore.

Like I tell my hubs, who said life would be easy? It’s not. All we can do is muddle through the best we can with the help of fam & friends. Oh, a a little alcohol.
Love ya, honey.
.-= Charlotte´s last blog ..Wordless Wednesday: Tatts =-.

1) The only good reason to have a child is because you both want to have another child. The lack of desire (which is evident) or ability (which I question) and time (which is definitely true) is irrelevant. It’s about what you want and what’s best for the 3 of you. It doesn’t matter what everyone else feels or society does as an ill-thought rule. A large percentage of parents of multiple children aren’t qualified to have ONE.

You’re going through a rough time now, and you’re flooded with hormones. It’s natural to feel… out of place. But don’t allow that to draw into question who you are or what you can do.

2) Depression OFTEN stems for a lack of goals. The specifics is that in order to stay happy, you need something to look forward to every day (loving child and family do no count). By achieving all your goals at a young age, you’ve sort of screwed up the curve. You no longer have those goals to strive for when times are rough. You have nothing to push you to be better, instead… life just is. It’s part of the reason I read comics. I always have Wednesday to look forward to. I suggest taking a class in cooking or art, or perhaps establishing new goals for yourself. Idle hands strangle happy lives.
.-= Adam´s last blog ..Classifying Claremont =-.

time to pack it in and take a road trip with your precious cargo and regroup.
.-= termite´s last blog ..can’t sleep. =-.