Sun cried in the middle of the night. We called her to our bed and all three of us went back to sleep. A few hours later, I awoke with Sun in my arms. There was peace. And I thought, “what was that bothering me yesterday?” Then I remembered. And the obligation of guilt kicked [...]
Disappointment comes in many shades of gray. Yesterday’s disappointments were simple: black. It began to sink in that although my body DID allow me to get pregnant, it still failed in some way in not maintaining the pregnancy. That choice I felt so strongly about the night before was gone again. I have no choice. [...]
Looking back, the signs were there. But when you aren’t looking, how can you see them? So today when my period turned angry and stopped me in my tracks, I assumed it was what I’m told about ALL my new ailments: It’s yet another sign of aging. Then the flow got really heavy. No worries, [...]
With this recession going on, and what we me gardening and all, oh, and having a terrible two on our hands, we decided to STOP eating out. We’ve cut eating out down by about 90%. Seriously. I’ve been cooking a lot more, and so has my husband. We’ve been so thrifty! I even lost a [...]