When Even Being Friday Doesn’t Help
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Today was not a good day. The list of things that went wrong for me is long, and irrelevant. By tomorrow, most of what went so wrong today will be put into perspective and not matter (so much). But I can’t shake the weight of the day off. I even passed on dinner out with CS and Sun. So I am sitting alone in the house. Being left alone is a gift I am rarely given. And I am wasting it by being sad.
I feel like putting on a Cowboy Junkies CD, mixing a martini and going into full-on mope. But in about 30 minutes, my family will be home. And my bad mood would only be made worse if I were to hunker into a good mope and have it be interrupted.
And there it is. What I want right now is an evening to myself. Alone with no TV, no family, no responsibilities nor expectations. I want silence. I want a night out of my life when I was single: Come home to an empty space, turn on relaxing, thoughtful music (or not), curl up with a good book (or movie), and say nothing to no one for hours on end. And not have to ask for the quiet or feel it is a gift to have it.
On second thought, I AM going to dig up a Cowboy Junkies CD and mix a martini. Mope? Maybe a little. I will turn the lights down and stay in a room with no TV once Sun goes to bed in less than an hour. And I will relax and allow myself to have this bad day. And this evening that will be mine.
good for you, hon! take the time to honour the mope. it’s good for you.
wish i could make the need for a mope go away. *hugz*
Sometimes a good sulk is the only thing to do.
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Man, there’s nothing better than a strong martini and a good mope. I wish I had something to be sad about—WAIT…my laptop died today! Would that count?
Have one for me, would ya? I like mine extra dirty with extra olives.
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I have been locked up in my house with my sick son all week, and this evening when I drove my daughter to a birthday party, it was the most divine, SILENT, 10 minutes alone in the car. I have to take what I can get!
I hope your little bit of time alone was enough to lift your spirits.
“I want a night out of my life when I was single: Come home to an empty space, turn on relaxing, thoughtful music (or not), curl up with a good book (or movie), and say nothing to no one for hours on end.”
— That’s me every night! It’s not as great as it sounds…
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Everyone needs alone time now and then.
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I’m a big fan of the occasional mope. And these days it’s much easier for me to get a night alone, and it’s great. I hope your weekend puts a smile back on your face.
Peace – D
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I know exactly what you mean – you’ve said it so well. Remember when it wasn’t a gift to be asked for, just an option you had? When I have to spend a night in a hotel on business, I revel in the silence, the inaccessibility. I miss them, but luxuriate in thehours stretching out before me when I get to be ALONE!
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