Years ago, I gave my husband a paperweight that said, “What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?” This was when he was still dissatisfied with work and trying to find his soul. He has since found it.

When I told a friend I was pregnant a year ago, she reminded me of this paperweight–that I had once answered it with, “I’d be a mom.” Being a mom was the scariest thought for me for so very long. I was worried I wouldn’t be maternal enough; that I’d be too tired all the time; that I’d put my career above my child; that we’d not have enough money to afford the “good things in life” and have a child, too. My list was endless.

But the yearning to want to be a mom grew within me. And then I was told it wouldn’t happen, which, of course, finally made me see how much I wanted it. And then I got pregnant. And a whole new set of worries kicked in: I worried about my pregnancy; about how things would work out with my job; about whether my relationship with my husband would suffer; about daycare; about having an only child. My new list was endless.

And then I had Sun. And the weirdest thing in the world happened. I stopped worrying. Really. Stopped. Yeah, sure. I worry about vaccinations and Sun’s hemangioma. But that’s normal. I find that I now worry far less about work and finances and the future, “the unknown,” and my ability at being a good mother now that I am a mother than I ever did thinking about being a mother.

Having Sun has so refocused my attention! It is amazing how so very little matters when she is in my presence. I’m all Bob Marley with her: “We’ll be together with a roof right over our heads. We’ll share the same room while Ja provides the bread.” Now that I have her in my life, I have this deep sense that the rest of things will fall into place just as they should. And I have confidence that I am a very good mother indeed.

Had I known having a child, the single thing I have worried most about in my life, was going to give me the gift of peace . . . well, let’s just say I am glad I didn’t let my worries stifle me.

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