As it turns out, thirty minutes after my last post, my water broke! No contractions leading up to it; nothing. So I woke CS up and we grabbed what we could think of and went to the hospital. They hooked me up to the monitor and determined that I was having mild contractions and that Sun was doing just fine. So they scheduled my c-section for the morning. That meant four hours of waiting. CS managed to nap and somehow those four hours flew by.

Then at 5:45am this morning, I met with my OB and the anesthesiologist. We arranged for the spinal anesthesia for the c-section (she was still breech and her neck was still of concern enough not to risk a vaginal delivery).

My c-section went very smoothly with no complications. Nonetheless, the surgery was the scariest thing I’ve ever endured in my life. Ever. I had the shivers for the full thirty minutes from fear and cold. CS had planned on viewing the delivery on the other side of the screen but saw the haggard look in my eyes and stayed with me behind the screen. He was a very good coach. And that is good, since the doula we had arranged to be with us was out of town and unable to attend the birth.

And at 6:13 this morning, I heard Sun cry for the first time. And I cried, too. She was whisked pretty quickly to the nursery to have her lungs checked since she was on the cusp of prematurity. CS did hold her and got pictures of her before he followed her to the nursery. I did get to see her but did not touch her until some five hours later. But during those many hours, I was still in such a state of shock that even my delay in holding her did not upset me.

I have been nauseous all day and on an all-liquid diet. But I’ve had very little pain from the incision. But enough about me.

Sun is very healthy! Her lungs are fine, and she’s doing really well. She weighed 4 pounds, 13 ounces and measured in at 18 inches long. And her HAIR!!! Blond and plentiful. She looks like her daddy and is just beautiful. The only hiccup we are having is that because she is so little, she is having a bit of difficulty with sucking. Nursing isn’t coming yet–my class to learn what to do is next week. She’s having problems latching on, and I’m not yet producing milk. And she’s not yet taking to the bottle either. So as of now, she has the tiniest tube through her nose that is feeding her. They don’t expect this to go beyond a day or so.

CS and I both fell instantly in love with her. I am so relieved everything worked out. I get to use another word I rarely use: euphoric. We are utterly euphoric. She’s already the light of my life.